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I am hanted by a ghost that I can not define!
08/10/2007 02:31:46 / don't know
I swear it is not me, and yet it sems to be a person that was just like me. Some one is haunting me. I think it was a blues man from the sixties or seventies that died of a heroine overdose. I don't use the drug, and I am scared that I may be unable to shake this spirit from me. I seem to have a lot of his mannerisms, but I am a different person. Was I the person that died, or is that person attached to me some how? I am hearing his voice, and had an odd conection with him on a psychic level. This happened to me today. I was waiting for the bus and I had the strangest feeling that I was conected to a man in the past. He may have lived in Houston. I had just gone to a catholic church, and gone to see my aunt at a doctor's office. Then I went to book store. I could have passed through some weird moment, as I fell asleep in the Church. I was up all night and I fell asleep at the church. I was laying down and then I passed out. I awoke with a sense of peace, and distinctly remember that I was thought of as a derilict. What the hell? I am freaked out by this all. Weird things keep happening to me. I think that God did this to me for some reason or another. I don't know what is going on! Remember the Nine Inch Nails song that says "They keep calling me... Keep on calling me." I swear that is about dead people. I think that it is even called Dead Souls! I used to sing that song all the time. What the hell? I keep having thoughts that I don't want to have, and I can't explain them. I have no reason or understanding as to why, but I can not stop them... I am sorry if this is upsetting the dead man, but I can not go on wwith this psychic weirdness. I just got the most odd look from my aunt's cat! Auuuugh! I am going to say a few words for the dead. May you rest in eternal salvation. Be at peace! Now will they leave me alone? I have obviosly dabbled in the wrong magic, been touched by the wrong person, or I have been affected by the wrong environment. I have been all over this country, to Mexico, and to Canada. I have smoked a lot of pot in the past, though have since quit. I have been at amazing places, done strange things, and done some feats of magic. I have seen miracles, and have pplayed a lot of instruments. I am also a singer of some quality when it comes to the blues. Was I a blues hound in my last life? This shit does not make sense! I have experienced an angel or two, and seen some odd visions and things I won't discuss. I just need to say this and then I will relax. I don't need this anymore. I have to be free! I am not the madness, just the man. The madness will fade. I am not the past, but the present. I am not there in the then, I am now in the present. I have no power beyond today, and I am able only to work on today and then tomorrow. I do not need this past anyway, I need a future. Am I so alone that I am my own soul mate? Is there any one I can dicuss this with other than a priest? I just know that today God did a thing to me that has affected me in an odd way. I will work on this with a clear head when, and only when, I am able.
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