well,i leave nor cal this week,i'm not happy about it.i hella love it here & i'm positive wisconsin isn't the place for me seeing as the people out here aren't stuck up & just because i'm not "punk"enough for the kids in appleton dosen't mean you should sit there & stare at me like i'm an idiot.I thought being a punk and shit was saying fuck you to the govement and everyone around you,but that dosen't give you the right to be an ass to someone you don't even know.anyways,i've met alot of genuwine punks and gals and guys into the scene i'm into (the "billy")scene i guess thats what you call it?and they're all tight and i'm pissed about not being able to bring them to wi. with me.i still belive about my love is dumb know adays and think the words been used to much and we need to come up with something new because love isn't love anymore.and i hate emo kids and scene kids.your gay.and the scene guys are like trying to hide there homosexuality come one just come out already.and i'm not singling one person it's just what i've seen with these kids now a days,but if you feel that i'm mis interpruting(sp?)your & your "crew" bring it up to me.

-have a great fucking day.and get faded this weekend,i know i'm gonna!

i think love is lame.i think people that are in love are wasting there time because they aren't exploring others and what they have to offer.i'd love to have love,but in past expierences i wasn't offered the chance to recieve it,i was the only one willing to give it up freely as it came and it would have been the death of me.now i realize i was ignorant and reatarded.i think one of these days i'll find someone,that i'll like enoguh to marry.and maybe start to love him but us teenagers won't find love until we've explored more,in which we haven't because we've been cooped up in a small town.you haven't explored pass the normal people you hang out with and you need too,to find what you think you've had.

much love.