DAMNIT!... i mess up on boys, school, getting my life together... i dont know why i totally do some fuck up shit to the ones i really want to be with... maybe i expect more or i just freak out and pretend i dont want them... gaysauce... school im fucking up because im never there anymore.. im not motivated to be at coba... i dont think anyone is and its really no excuse... its just if i dont want to be at a place i dont go... i got to swallow my pride... i keep not getting my things together with getting a car and saving up... ALL I WANT IN LIFE IS TO BE MARRIED AN BE A HAPPY BARBER WIFE!!! GOD WHY WONT YOU GIVE ME THIS (no i dont want to be marry this second i mean later in the future...) i know somewhere along the line i want to be married to someone who is my best friend and is there for me... i want to be a barber and be able to make lots of money and enjoy what i do for a living... i want my husband... i want a house of my own i want a car and i want my barber shop!...