DATE: 04/13/2008 15:47:32 / MOOD: Stoned

Punk and hip hop are almost one in the same. I also have a myspace- myspace.com/harmonization_of_contrast. I love to write poetry. I love to write in general. Love computers, they're sexy. I love industrial music, even though no one else does. Mary is my saviour.  Both of my parents are ex cops, my dad was a colonol in the army, I grew up having everything I wanted. There was always something missing though. I realized that the simple things in life, and friends are the most important things. I am the exact opposite of who I used to be, even though I always dressed pretty much like I do, and listened to the same music...but I never really understood it until now. I'm so glad that I've discovered how to obtain true happiness. I don't know exactly where I'm going, but I know I'll get there eventually.

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DATE: 04/13/2008 15:40:27 / MOOD: in love

I want Bro Hymn played at my funeral. and I want there to be lots of PBR

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DATE: 04/13/2008 15:39:36 / MOOD: horny

The youth of America is the future. Many of our youth in the poorer areas of the country have the ability to become great, but unfortunately these abilities will never be recognized because they lack the resources to attend colleges.  Music and art are the only real hopes that these kids have. Many of them will end up selling drugs in order to reach their dreams. Hustling has become glorified and society is to blame. I’ve had friends overdose on drugs; I’ve seen dreams shattered because of blemished criminal records. These are not criminals, these are not violent crimes. The solution to this problem is education. I think that instead of jail sentences, first offenders should serve sentences in school. There should be facilities in which these kids can pursue their dreams, much like one can plead insanity and be committed to an insane asylum rather than prison. The dilemma is that we are not socialist; few Americans would be willing to pay extra taxes for this. I think that in order to pay for this education, part of the sentence should be helping to maintain the facility and also helping to teach others. There should be counseling available and part of these schools should be open to the public, but in order to qualify, the prospective students must show that they do not have enough money to attend another school. A GPA must be maintained so that only students who are serious will remain at the school. Of course, the students who are serving time will be separate from the public until they can prove that they are on good behavior and are far enough along to help out with teaching the other students.  This school will be run mainly by donations, perhaps some professors will volunteer to teach without pay. I believe that I am not the only one who feels this way, and I think that there will be volunteers and donations. I have not yet proposed a meal plan or housing for the public, but it will of course be provided for those serving time. This will be an option as opposed to going to jail. If a student seems as though they are not interested in escaping poverty and refuse to study, then their case may be reviewed again, and they can be sentenced time in jail. I think that the answer is education, not punishment. Many of the youth are watching music videos that show hustling as a way of life. I think that if another option is available the crime rate will plummet in these areas.

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DATE: 04/13/2008 15:38:47 / MOOD: Stoned

I need more responsibility in my life. I need to not take things for granted. I need motivation.I an moving in with room mates, because I think if i am constantly surrounded by people i will feel less of a need to party.I am going to try to work my way into bartending.this way, i can pay my rent and pay for j sarge.then transfer to vcu for graphic design.fulfill my dream of being a graphic designer and actually having a skill.Probably do just freelance though.I never want to be rich.Rich people seem boring, I'd rather chill on a rock at the river with good friends and a pack of PBR than attend a social gathering with expensive wine and fake people.I just want to be happy, and I finally realize that I don't need my parents to pay my tuition, and if they dont then I will be more motivated to finish a class that i pay for.I mess around with html in my spare time, and i have always thought it would be cool to do graphic design, but my parents didnt want me doing art....I spent so long trying to impress them. I spent so long trying to impress everyone, and when I don't try to impress anyone, that's when i learn who my real friends are.I am focused on my goal, not necessarily the means to get there. It's the law of attraction. I will be a graphic designer.I am also working on building strong, real friendships rather than having a boyfriend or girlfriend. I think that right now, I need to focus on where I am going rather than get caught up with someone else's issues.That being said, I may not be looking, but I am not blind.If i could find someone who can respect my space, and understand that i am trying to go to college, someone who has a similar philosophy and life and is headed in the same general direction....then that would be ideal.There is one person I kinda have a crush on, but I think they've given up on my crazy ass. Little do they know, that when my mind is chaotic, they seem to be the only constant. After all of these changes, I still have yet to write them off, and I don't really plan on it.Also, I'm trying to put myself on a pedestal so to speak...if that makes any sense. I'd really rather just be friends with people.Friends who support me and don't judge me. Few right now that I can really count on, but it's quality, not quantity.I don't think I have ever been this happy. I have realized how to live, and how to reach my goals.

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