DATE: 08/03/2007 05:53:53 / MOOD: angry

I could have spent last night curled up with someone. But I thought my druggie fucking aunt was going to come in, so I said that I couldn't. She didn't come into town. I hate tweakers. Even IF I am related.

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DATE: 07/29/2007 01:20:40 / MOOD: don't know

So... has anyone else noticed that about every other new girl on here is a "model"? I mean, I know I'm no Dayna Delux, nor will I ever be, but I have been in magazine's, I have contracts, and make the majority of my cash (when I'm not recovering from surgery that is) from modeling. Most of the girls I've seen have pictures of themselves taken BY themselves and that is it. Yes, the typical myspace photo of a pretty girl IS justification enough to call themselves models... Ugh... Maybe I'm just annoyed.

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DATE: 07/25/2007 09:50:40 / MOOD: other

Ok. So I get migraine's really bad. I've had this one now for about 3 days and it just won't stop! I need some help. Anyone know a cure, or at very least some other treatment besides 2 acetomitophen, 3 ibuprofen's, and a sinuns cap? Seriously... the drugs just are NOT working and I have a "date" tomorrow. HELP!!!! If you do, I promise a cutesy little sign or something....

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DATE: 07/24/2007 08:13:04 / MOOD: bored

So I'm a socialist. I do believe that that system of government will work the best provided it's not the bastardized forms that the world has thus far seen (which can't TECHNICALLY be called Socialism because it strayed so damned far from the true core beliefs of the system). The NAZIs and COMMUNIST regimes like Russia and North Korea completely threw off the entire world's perception of what Socialism even IS. If you don't know the difference between Communism and Socialism (yes, there are a few DISTINCT differences, but no, not many) I suggest you look it up as well as what the core beliefs of both systems are.

Anyhow... I was browsing this site and came onto one started by a 15 year old girl who is ranting and raving about how she wants this country to be run as an anarchic nation. Ok. Kids. Anarchy will NEVER work. Ever. All that pure and utter chaos will do is eventually become it's own form of government. It's the human condition thing. We always want to try to oppress others, and run other's lives. It's just what we do. Get over it.

Rant complete.

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DATE: 07/22/2007 12:33:29 / MOOD: disappointed

So, I’ve been on this site now for just about a month, possibly over, possibly under, I’m a bit too busy to keep track of these things. In my time here so far, I’ve met some really genuinely cool people (check my top friends, all those people are fantastic and I completely value the budding friendships). I’ve met some out and out morons as well. I’m not naming names however, not my thing. From all of these people, I’ve noticed a few things that I think will open a few eyes, and if not, you might get a few laughs along the way and if not either of the previous, you might just be pissed off at me. Any of them is fine.

The first type of person I’ve noticed on here is the overtly sexual. Not that that’s a bad thing or anything (I mean, have you LOOKED at my pictures), but yea… c’mon kids…. I don’t want to stumble onto someone’s page and find a BEAUTIFUL girl staring back with her cleavage hanging out, only to find that this girl is just that, a GIRL. What happened to parenting? Seriously. When I was their age, my rents would have shat if I was tarting myself up for a camera to post online to possibly sleazy old men out to nab me. I’m not one for censorship, but I really don’t want to be looking at a 14 year old and go wow, she’s got a nice rack. Nothing says first class ticket to a semen stained death like emulating over sexualized media icons.

These kids are also the one’s SO very worried about being stereotyped, but are the first to start screaming out about how Hot Topic isn’t “punk”. Now, I’m loss here. I hate capitalism just as much as the next broke 20 year old college student, but isn’t all this anti-stereotypical teenage angst playing into just that which they are trying to condemn? Bitching to me about how you hate being called anything except a punk, and then turning around and bashing the kid in bad need of a hair cut and calling him emo is just that. You’re stereotyping you dumb twit.

I get a kick out of going to shows with one of my friends. She is sort of a fascination of mine. She is 15 and does all of the afore mentioned things. I take her to these shows and she points out to me all the “poseurs” who are wearing shirts of bands they never heard of. Before we go to these shows, I forgot to mention she usually begs to borrow one of my shirts. Usually of the GG Allin or Crass variety.

Another thing, why is it that these kids suddenly know ALL ABOUT what punk is, where it got it’s start, who were the supposed greats, and what constitutes non-punk behaviour. I’m completely at a loss here… Someone please explain how kids who were conceived maybe 20 years after the fact suddenly have such insight. Call me humble, but I would rather have been born in the same decade as what I’m trying to preach to people who WERE alive in that decade lived through.

I think I may have been born in the wrong decade and am currently in the wrong age bracket, or maybe I need to stop befriending people double my age because I’m starting to talk like a rickety old woman. I’ve already become the old person who talks about “kids these days” but then again, I never really GOT to be a kid. Maybe that has something to do with it. All I know is if I see one more 15 year old post a “Who’s the best punk rawk band” poll I’m going to scream.

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DATE: 07/21/2007 23:34:47 / MOOD: bored

So yea... dreams? They're fucked up. I always have crazy stoner dreams. Maybe this is one of the reasons I've never tried my hand at em... No. On second thought, it's just because they disgust me.

Tonight or today, depending on which way you look at it, I had one weird fucking dream. It consisted of a male who currently holds my attention being a pink unicorn and telling me to hop on if I want to live. It proceeded to take me on a journey through happy Abortion ville. That was fantastic. Different than how most abortions are performed, this one was the doc ripping out a full term baby and bashing out it's brains.

Then I found myself on Halloween with my ex (one previously discussed) two years ago. We were undead versions of our selves, and everyone else were zombies. After defeating the zombie hordes, we got into a monumental argument about his friend giving a 7 year old ciggarettes after kindergarten.

After that, I stumbled across my dog. My wonderful adorable pit bull mix. (Side note, if you know me AT ALL you know I love my dog more than just about anything.) Well, my boy had transformed into all the negative media driven stereotypes of what a pit bull was and attacked the chicken which had suddenly appeared in my arms. Then flowers popped out of it's neck hole.

Then I thought that I had woke up to a phone call from the boy who currently holds my interest, but it was a girl on the other end yelling at me about stealing her man. Then she came through and chased me around with a rolling pin...

After all of that, I dreamed I was drawing. My ex came riding up on a unicycle out of my picture and said he was sorry and that everything would be ok. Then he pulled out a clown which at that point I ran screaming from him (I hate clowns).

Then I really did wake up to Rock of Love being on. Ugh... No more pizza at 10 PM for me.

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DATE: 07/18/2007 11:27:24 / MOOD: disappointed

I am so fucking sick of seeing people post e-petitions. In case you don't know what I'm talking about, here is an example. Some kid gets killed in the UK in 1993 by two ten year olds. Well, some judge eight years down the road decides to grant these kids anonymity when they are released about five years before their minimum sentence (good behaviour). There is a public outcry! HOW DARE THEY?! Well, all these do-gooder shit heads online instead of getting off their obese asses decide to pass around a HUGE letter and sign their jackass name to it and then pass it on to their also so called do-gooder friends. This is an e-petition. Here is why that is SO fucking STUPID!!!!

1. Half of the time they get the story WRONG. Let's face it kids, this is a society based on sensationalism. Every time we read something, it's almost like we've read it before anymore. Oh man 8 more boys got killed in Iraq, oh that's too bad. BUT WAIT FARMER BOB RAPED A GOAT?! That's SO wrong. I need to do something about that! Which do you pay more attention to? The boys dying for your sorry ass, or the inbred redneck who raped his goat? Let's see... I doubt it's the soldiers. You want to know why? We are more interested in what shocks and disgusts us. So let's take the case of Jamie Bulger (the case I referenced above). In this story, the poor little boy has batteries shoved into his mouth. That is terrible to begin with. In the stupid e-petition going around, the poor kid is even MORE degraded because the batteries are suddenly shoved up his ass. This was more than likely done by some perv who wanted to add more pizzazz to the story.

2. Look at the LAW people! How do you think a law carries? The people in THAT DISTRICT vote on it (unless it's a national law, then you better pray your ass off that your representative is paying attention to you). Do you think they give a damn what your jack ass thinks when you live across the country? NO!

3. Look up how a petitions carries through. You can sign your name online all day, that DOESN'T mean that it makes it legal. Unless you are signing it on a site that SPECIFICALLY STATES that this is a LEGAL e-signature (think airlines, or the government) your e-signature doesn't mean jack shit. A petition must be WITNESSED by another human being and signed in black or blue ink by hand.

4. Do you think people who live in another country give a shit about your opinion? Let's see. Do you care what a little kid in Ethiopia thinks about your courts rulings? I HIGHLY doubt it. Unless they are providing you with oil or other valuable commodities, you more than likely won't give a damn. And if you do, well fuck you.

5. How many copies of this EXACT petition is going around do you think? IT'S COMMON SENSE and simple multiplcation! This is nothing more than chain mail! You send it to ten of your friends who each send it to ten of their friends. Even by then, that is 100 different copies with 100 different people as number three. HOW THE HELL ARE THEY GOING TO TRACK THAT?! Better yet, how will they even validate that?! HUH?!?!?!?! EXPLAIN IT TO ME SOMEONE!

The idiots that I get the biggest kick out of are the asswipes who will sign these "petitios" with their screen name. Yea, like the good ole U S of A government will care about what slayerfreak99 thinks about this law. IF you feel the need to make an idiot of yourself by signing your name in the first place, for the love of God don't sign it like that! That just makes you look like even MORE or a jack ass.

Another one, the idiots "If you have any heart you will repost this..." NO FUCK YOU. I have plenty of heart. I have my ass out there on the street with a damned picket sign protesting the law while you hide behind the anonimity of your computer screen. If YOU had a brain, maybe you could put two and two together!

In closing, think about things before you sign your name to something. Do your research, make sure this thing is even valid! Half of the time, these chain letters are just to spite someone else! Think of those things you send around to "warn" ladies of a guy who's supposedly killed 56 women. Let's see, if he were REALLY wanted by the police, he would ALREADY HAVE BEEN ARRESTED! They can track where you log in at from ANY address. If you are online and are looking up child porn, the government can and will track that shit. Look it up morons. Big Brother is watching you. God I need a fucking drink after this...

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DATE: 07/18/2007 04:22:29 / MOOD: happy

Yesterday was fucking fantastic. It's been soo long since I've actually had that much fun!

I went out with a lovely gent. We went to a little bar, ate pizza, watched a movie, and played Uno. Then we swam in a pool and hot tubbed. It was absolutely lovely and needs to happen more often because seriously? This town is a black hole. The gent who I spent time with can attest to that.

 

 

On another note, I will be checking out the University of Maryland sometime here soon! Fantastic.

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DATE: 07/14/2007 10:39:54 / MOOD: happy

So today, I went to an auction. It was crazy bad. I swear I have never seen more red neck meth addicts in one place at the same time.

This place was DIRTY! When I finally got to take my bath, the water was actually brown when I got out, that's how bad it was. I also have tan lines! YAY! I couldn't tell til I took a bath.

I got hit on by a red neck and he tried to pick me up with some cheesy line about the back seat of his pick up truck. I basically threatened to knock his teeth out.

I hate this area...

The up side? I got a new horse. YAY for no slaughter.

 

PS A steaming hot bath feels amazing after a bad day.

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DATE: 07/10/2007 10:45:57 / MOOD: angry

I'm going to kill someone. Not only did someone rip off my fucking checking card, CDs, and leather, but someone stole the fiddle and tin whistle that my grand dad left me when he died. I KNOW the fiddle was myn, it has a tiny TINY Irish resistance flag painted on the inside. I'm seriously going to cry right about now :'(

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DATE: 07/04/2007 07:06:29 / MOOD: don't know

My flight was being served by an obviously gay flight attendant, whoseemed to put everyone in a good mood as he served us food and drinks.As the plane prepared to descend, he came swishing down the aisle and told us that "Captain Marvey has asked me to announce that he'll be landing the big scary plane shortly, so lovely people, if you could just put your trays up, that would be super."On his trip back up the aisle, he noticed this well-dressed and rather Arabic looking woman hadn't moved a muscle. "Perhaps you didn't hear me over those big brute engines but I asked you to raise your trazy-poo, so the main man can pitty-pat us on the ground." She calmly turned her head and said, "In my country, I am called aPrincess and I take orders from no one." To which (I swear) the flight attendant replied, without missing abeat, "Well, sweet-cheeks, in my country I'm called a Queen, so Ioutrank you. Tray-up, Bitch."

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