The Obscurities of The Heart and Soul : 11 Poems

By: Dandy Jon Mood: in love Date: 08/14/2007 19:28:28 Music: Amanda Palmer

Half a Heart/Half a Spade Give a rose to me and I will keep it Give a heart to me and I'll paint it blue Ask me of sorrow and I'll tell you Give me a pencil and I'll draw you a spade A heart like mine is a spade Give me a crayon and I'll draw a candle Light it up and set my soul on fire Ask me of my sorrows and I will speak a million words no more no less My heart is a spade half a spade at least my other half is covered in dust Half a Heart Half a Spade and now I'm running out riddles to wrap around my mouth speak silly fodder I'm getting lost in wordplay clever it is not Ask me of my sorrow I dare you..... He's got himself a pretty smile You will walk in the drag of the modern fashions walking slowly absorbing the scenery with your gent tendencies a faggot in the eyes of the people that stop and look at you but they always think to themselves he's got himself a pretty smile walking with a strut most people will think you strut more than just that no pun intended I'm sure but they don't have what you got and that’s what it takes to succeed in this world with your modern waltz and modern slang will you walk around collecting shiny pennies for your luck since you have so much to give no matter how many people look at you with jealousy they can't deny that you got yourself a pretty smile and no they can't hold you back with your wings golden and bright so what if they call you faggot and queer its not their blessings that you need to hear walk in the drag of the modern fashion oh your such a gent Oscar Wilde of the modern day he's got himself a pretty smile they all say as you walk on by with a blue sky above you indeed you do A Question of Faith I wont take you down Misjudge Criticize But it seems like those right wingers Have done it again And they slammed the door on you and me Looked at us, and screamed blasphemy And they tore us down in the name of god And in the name of their ignorance Gave a sneer And shut the door And left us here I wont take this personally But it makes me think Is it a question of faith A question of logic But doesn’t this make you want to question your footsteps Your path and days on this planet Did you put a parental advisory sticker On my mouth The day I was born Did you take notice in my dreams And did you decide that I wasn’t good enough To be called a human being Because my love is not for a woman But for a man And is it a disgrace That my heart doesn’t belong to you I wont take you down Because I’m better than that And I wont believe in your magic tricks Life isn’t like a rabbit in a hat Save your tricks and ghost stories for someone else The cross I bare isn’t burning to the ground And if you think I’m an abomination Your no better than me With your pitchforks and ignorance Always tearing people like me down Straight Or gay Its always the same You say your open minded But when you see us and our ambition and dreams You deny everything we say And put us to shame Its only the truth What are you afraid of? Interzone I walk the streets not really aware of my surroundings everything is a ghetto in my eyes the youngest of children could have guns hidden this is not a bother to me I never really had a problem with children we are all children after all I walk this street like an outlaw an outsider I am Robin Hood of the modern day sorry if I didn't give you an introduction but time is never on my side is it ever really on anyone’s side us against time but time always wins I guess we should make the most of what we have I don't have much but whatever I have is yours I don't need anything all I need is my heartbeat my clothes my shoes and nothing more I walk past old churches burned to the ground I hear the sound of laughter off in the distance perhaps its the Holy man who lost his mind the grace of god was never a grace that could fill this heart if it did I wouldn’t be the outsider the freak the outlaw Robin Hood none of it the streets are filled with chaos but that doesn’t bother me it was bound to happen sooner or later my job is done the poor have fought back the rich and the poor are equal I'm no longer needed my job is done The Revolution can find a new leader The streets are now truly in the hands of the free

It was one of those days Walking around, with a decent pair of headphones on Listening to flogging molly, smashing pumpkins, the pogues, the shins Dropkick murphys, the Dubliners, Ramones, Johnny Cash and Rufus Wainwright Its not hot, its somewhat cloudy, buts it nice and windy Its been kind of humble, wish Jordan was here with me Walking around, wish Aaron was here to share a laugh But I’m okay here by myself, company would be nice But I’m surrounded by my thoughts, so its okay Its one of those days, walking around With my bleach orange hair, in my pogues shirt Walking around in my punk clothes, I’m not a stereotype But I’m a punk in the eyes of people, people tend to look at me Like I’m a criminal, at heart I’m a hooligan, not a football hooligan Just a punk poet hooligan, I’ve already made my stand in life Art is my life, life is art, truth and whatever Walking around, past the houses, past the streets, avenues Its just one of those days where the music speaks on so many levels Sitting down, on the grass, looking around, connecting with the atmosphere Its just one of those days, where I wish you were with me To share a silent moment, to share company and time But its okay if I walk alone here, I got my music playing But in spirit, perhaps you were there with me Killing Romance was it the romance that killed us here has the game of love been a game that killed us both killing hearts our hearts are dead kiss me here kiss me there lover lover love me loveless was it the romance was it the attraction was it the days in the dark that made me fall for you lover lover love me loveless leave me here kill me now kill us both killing hearts the death of romance killing romance love me loveless kill this heart where it stands waiting for you to pull the trigger love me loveless Looking at the soul of a lover So you picked me up And you brought me back Looked at me And realized how down I was You spoke to me, with your soft humble tone And you brought me back You brought me home

Modern falling through the ceiling down from Heaven this Angel falls through the kitchen floor this modern fall from grace has left the neighbors talking up the shit that is never any of their business but look everyone feathers fall from the sky I've fallen into your horizon and the atmosphere smells like shit and smoke and burning rubber falling through to the world you live in what an atrocity what a shame to see the people they all try to break my will not now not ever this strength to endure is all that I have left to keep falling like a shooting star I've fallen into the old abandoned church and the cross has split in two the believers and sinners on one side and I'm on the other what a modern disgrace go get the gun shoot me down before I take get up and walk away but look the ashes fall from the sky Heaven is burning and you have no home to go now what a shame what a disgrace such an atrocity I'm left here with no place to belong to what a disgrace this is a killing spree a killing spree the Heavens are burning up above and everyone one this planet is on a killing spree but this a modern fall from grace the people and their misfortunes what a shame what a disgrace I see the people and they talk a lot of shit they speak and never think with their hatred and violence words to cut me down but they can't break me and take me down not now not ever this strength to endure is all that I have left to keep Poor I am poor but I am rich at heart no one and no lack of money can never bring me down I'm surrounded by Angels my friends my family children that are born everyday life is hard but with these Angels among us things will always turn out right even if it isn't in this lifetime things always end up the way they should be even if it isn't perfect I am poor but I'm rich at heart and thats what really counts in these hard times Prozac Boy I am cold as ice tonight I feel damned its been such a fall from grace this smile on my face no one can erase God can't be found in these walls torn down you can pray deep inside religious or atheist your all the same I'll say what I'll say and I'll stick to it ignorance is bliss when you despise fake hearts I am cold as ice tonight but I'm not heartless by any means I just have too much to carry and I haven’t slept in days the medication that they gave me was a placebo I am damned by your grace so keep your prayers hold them deep inside I see you and your so far the people they seem to blur in my eyes self medicated parasites humming birds rats with wings they buzz around like bumble bees they irritate me Prozac Boy I am not your toy don't you hold me down self medicate me speak your words and speak it now hold me down I am cold as ice tonight I feel damned its been such a fall from grace this smile on my face no one can erase The greatest love poem I got my heart Wrapped up in thorns, but you come by And wash me clean, from the scrapes and scratches My dearest valentine Let us shine like stars, up in that sky Shine so bright Just shine tonight Come on and lets get away Come on Lets walk away from it all I'm always here Thinking of you As I sit here And write the greatest love poem The world will ever know But the world will never know it Because its only for your eyes to read Its only for your heart to keep So keep it when I'm down and dead And tired of everything that surrounds me tonight As ugly as I can be You still look at me With those pretty blue eyes And you adore me Love me for being who I am My wicked heart, in the eyes of those bigots Should burn in a hell, they said A heart and soul like mine, should rot away This love is unclean, this love is wrong But I wont turn away Homosexual or not If they like it or not, I don't care I love you And you love me that's the way it should be And those hateful and spiteful words That this world says Who cares what they say Love is love My dearest valentine Come with me We have to go Come and lets get away Come on Lets walk away from it all Come on , my dearest valentine

-Jon Powder-