Life : 12 Poems

By: Dandy Jon Mood: in love Date: 08/14/2007 19:06:11 Music: Jay Brannan

One: His last love letter His last love letter was so full of pain love had left him in ruin he wrote with a different heart he use to know me but now he's someone else He wrote his last love letter but he's not the same he's not the same One day will come when I see him face to face and on that day I'll ask him about who he is and where is he in life but will he give me poetry will he give me something back who I am is who I will be in the future I need not change for I am now humbled but I wont break you down no I wont break that heart I walk with winter in my heart and soul and when I speak do you feel the coldness of my tormented self do you feel lost too? am I someone you can trust am I someone you can relate to? will you tear me up will you break me down will you look my direction do see past this reflection do you see my heart wrapped around, up by your thorns do you make me smile only to say you never felt this way too? He sat there looking blankly at a life he never knew even when he got closer he always tore his heart apart never getting closer even when he wished that he could he never let himself try I said I wanted to know you I tried and tried but you always kept a distance and I swear to Christ I meant every word I said but you never even took a second thought and if you felt alone I've felt that way too and I wish I could reach out and touch you now wipe the tears away from your eyes but the the pain is too much to bear and I can't keep on trying I can't keep on trying to reach out when no arms are reaching out to me and I'm left alone with thoughts of tears but they don't fall from my eyes He wrote his last love letter but he never sent it to me he never sent it to me with his tears falling down he's not the same man I once knew no he's not the same and I wonder where he's at in life he's gone Two: Humbled Young Man Its another Sunday and I sit here on my bed But could you blame me for laying here Naked inside the soul, but I got nowhere to go So why should I dress up and make something of myself When I got no hurries to be something that I’m not At my worst I’m a humbled young man Best to keep your best wishes at bay, those lucky charms Were never things that I could wish for or fancy And at my worst I’m a quiet loner with a heart like no other So its best to keep your happiness away Its another day where I’m locked in my room Always writing and thinking of you I can’t help it if you bring out the poet in me I got no worries right now, but give it time I’m sure some kind of atrocity will come Knocking on my door, asking questions and making accusations But whatever comes my way I can always count on you To show me who I really am deep down inside So I can’t help if I feel like a humbled young man When I got a heart like yours to protect me Three: Hymn For Jordan I get down on my knees And I offer you my life Solace is found In those soft angelic eyes But when the storm inside your soul Comes raining down Into my atmosphere I can’t help but drown In those emotions you can’t keep inside Choirs sing the song of your life And its melancholic and beautiful And I’m going to take the stage And sing along Sing along I sing a hymn for you I’m not the best at this kind of thing But I’ll give it everything I got And its from the heart So don’t turn away Know you are loved And this feeling I have will never die I stand here And give you my life And I stand here Weeping tears of joy Weeping tears of love Solace is found In those soft angelic eyes But when the storm inside your heart Comes raining down Into my heart I can’t help but drown In those emotions you can’t keep inside For once in my life, my beautiful angel We found each other in the blur, in the daze In the endless sadness of a faded world Never let me go, I’ll never let go This feeling I have, its something brand new Its something I never felt before And it’s a heavy feeling in my heart and soul And I don’t ever want it to go The choirs sing, and the heavens smile down on us No matter how hard times may be, for you and me We got to have faith in the endless possibilities Just don’t close your eyes Lets just whisper endless poetry Into these hearts we have Deep inside I’ll sing a hymn for you And the choir will sing along I’ll take the stage and I’ll sing for you Four: In Spades Who I am, I am no one, I’m just a poet Just a fool, I’m just a sinner, a patron saint Think of a life no one lived, a dream that no one dreams And you will know of me I am only human, I have imperfections The sorrows I have seen, were shown to me in dreams Dreams are never what they seem If I were to wake up, on a beach Feel the sand, as it touched my feet To look around, and see nothing but oceans so vacant Dearest lover, where have you gone? My heart is sealed by your heavenly crest You cry sorrows you have known long before my life Stepped into yours, long before you breathed in my scent But dear angel, our wounds we bleed are one We’re cut equally deep, so cry not alone For I am your lover, I am your grace You are the sunshine, the earth, the moon The stars that shine, the air that I breathe Lover, my lover You are all of this and so much more I give you a rose, I give you a poem I give you my life, I give you it all Think not of sorrows, think not of such things Life is rough, you of all people should know such things Believe in me, because believing is better Than scheming schemes and sorrow feelings Just believe I’ll carry your burden if I am your lover And I’ll believe in you, because you believe in me Put your hand on my chest, feel this pain through this chest My heart it beats And I weep Lover, my lover, I am true All that I am and do I’m alive, because of you God and heaven, heaven and hell, art and poetry We are of but dust , earth and water, the sun shines And we grow Give us water and we will drink Give us paper, a pen and we shall write down The stories of our lives, and loves and pain we gained And lost and experienced I believe because I can, I believe in you This time, I took my faith from god God knows my faith can be given to anyone freely It is mine And I wish to share it, I wish to give it Take my faith and call it yours I don’t hesitate, I exist because I am Pitter patter the shuffle of cards The deck I've been dealt with, I take the cards And throw them away, one by one They fall into the abyss I keep the spades and open my chest I wrap the cards around my hearts Like birdcages I am in spades In spades Five: Irish Eyes I’ve dreamt of you Long before you walked into this life You’ve taken me and you’ve showed me That there is hope A guiding light A way back home Those Irish eyes have killed my pain A saving grace, inside your heart I dreamt of you Long before you walked into my life It was fate A guiding path From a distance you looked at me And you showed me what I was made of You helped me realize who I really am You stopped the rain And we walked hand in hand Through the streets And my heart is wrapped in your endless love Endless charm Those Irish eyes Have brought me home A guiding light A saving grace I dreamt of you And here you are A dream come true A love I feel A heart I love This is love And love is this Six: New Poem A Bottle of Wine Sitting here, looking at the atmosphere Sipping tea, and freezing a bottle of wine Winter has come, and its not the best season To drink this wine I want to share it with a lover With a companion, to drink it, to spread it upon his chest And playfully devour it, in sexual manner Such silliness I think But its much too late To sit here And drink this French bottle of wine Seven: A Heart that could never break give me a heart that could never break give me a love that will never die give me a prayer and pray for me give me a home let me sleep pull me close love me as I weep help this bleeding heart it still breaks and I still weep Eight: I saw the Angel... and I saw the Angel in the distance and I waved hello to him he waved in a solemn tone he was across the river writing messages in bottles that he collected from the roads discarded disowned I often replied to him as fast as I could he would never rush me I knew he understood these hands I have often shake I always shiver I sometimes ache my melancholy is a song will you sing it will you roam these rivers that we cannot cross but we still call for each others names its such a blessing its such a shame that distant we are but still so close he's my friend he's my pal and I waved hello to him today and he always waves back to me he's such a friend an Angel to me in my eyes Nine: Song of Sorrows let us love like lovers lost in anarchy N poetry let us fuck like dogs in heat since we don't care where Heaven is could this be Heaven with the genocide of renegade religions running us down one by one snatching us all let us love like the loveless so far away in the movies actors acting out that love scene with musical scores and slow motion kisses looking at this I ponder could this be Heaven let us love like lovers moving back moving forward fucking like the end of the world is already here to blow us all away until we turn to dust could this be Heaven under black N blue skies with the renegade religions locked shocked loaded ready to take us down one by one here they come to snatch us all could this be Heaven with its ugly grin lets pretend it is lets pretend the end of the world is here let them come to take us all away Ten: The Seasons of a Broken Heart Spring: spring chickens, cooking in a bed, thoughts of you, just wont stay dead, years getting lost in you and I am naked on the floor, looking at your face, in a picture that is etched in my mind, naked on the outside, on the inside, spring chickens we once were and now we sit here without passion, your ghost still comes to me in this bed to play with my heart and riddle my mind, love is a ghost, still coming by...to say hello....to say goodbye, to kill what was your memory, to kill what I was deep inside, old ghosts always come back and poke at my heart, will I bleed this heart dry or have I already bled too much? Summer: love was so pure in the summer time, I made love to you as the rain of a summers night fell on our bodies, it wasn’t cold, it was warm and humble, but these are memories of summer that has long past, the heat burns my eyes and our hearts, no longer sacred or golden, no longer loved, only loveless and fickle, fuck the fickle fucker that is love, my memories of you haunt me and I am now writing your name in scribbles, in substance and poetry that will never be read loveless (you are, my love) Autumn: the temptations of love, and of a summer hot and cold heatstroke, I felt somewhat lost in the grace of love but could I ever feel like it was wrapped around this old heart of mine? I fell into the darkness and I never felt so alone, maybe I should give up and die, perhaps in time, things make sense and maybe one day I wont feel this way, but that time hasn’t come yet, so what the fuck am I to do, love is substance and it is OD’ing in my heart, love like nothingness I guess, It never makes any sense to me, love nothingness, embrace this hurt and let the pins prick me deep within...let me fall silently screaming your name and whispering words of passion that I could never say in your ears....love is fickle...love is lost in the autumn nocturne... Winter: my heart falls like the snow, I am not alive. I am not dead. I am not here, I am not there, the snow now falls, the snow now falls, let it fall on me.....as I turn to stone.... Eleven: New Poem To Love Him In beauty, you sleep tonight Naked beauty, you devour my heart To love him, is to love like no one else Like no other To touch his naked body, to caress His naked flesh, his hairs upon his head His pubic hair, his soft skin Laying naked in the sunlight, as it makes its way across The room To caress his body, to slide your fingers through His pubic hair, towards his belly Up his chest, to kiss those lips To look into those eyes To love him Is to love like no other To love him Is to love like an immortal Forever intertwined, naked in beauty Twelve: New Poem He broke my heart His sadness he kept deep inside Looked at me in the eyes And it broke my heart He was crying deep inside, and I know his pain Was a pain that was there long before I walked into his life He cried inside, and I felt it and I wanted to die Because his sorrow was a pain I haven't felt before His hurt broke my heart, he broke my heart The ups and downs of life and love He said he wanted to sleep But he kept on pacing back and forth, wide awake dead Sleep deprivation and pressure to be something he couldn't be He stayed awake and I could hear his silent screams And I wanted to cry, and take it all away His love was a distance and it was cutting me deep inside But I'll fight the razors and reach out And pull him here And if I have to walk the roads Than so be it, as long as this heart beats inside of me Nothing can keep me here, nothing can keep me from reaching you So I'll do what I can And do what I do I'll get up And I'll run to you When I saw you finally Face to face, I pulled you closer And I whispered to you Hallelujah I sang to you I spoke to you softly I looked at you, and I held you And you cried on my shoulder You asked me to never let you go And I promised to never let you go Looking at each other Looking at the roads we came from I held you closer I looked into your eyes And saw the sadness fade

-Jon Powder-