Fear and Loathing in the great midwest

By: Joey Doomsday Mood: bored Date: 03/24/2008 20:49:05 Music: Toxic Reasons- "Killed By Remote Control"

So...another day in the middle of nowhere.

 I moved out of Detroit to get the hell away from all the dope and deprevety that drove me into shooting enough dope everyday to just get thru it....to drag out and wait out the rest of my life in a state of being numb..funny thing, it dosent always work that way.

The day starts off answering an e-mail from another resident of this town that keeps flirting with me and dropping hints about 'hooking up' despite the fact that she HAS an old man, and kids by him. Thinks Im hot due to being a tattooed freak. She claims to be into all kinds of kinky shit, so I play along with the game out of amusement....

Then off to an AA meeting where I generally scare of the majority due to the fact that Im an Alcoholic/Addict from a big mean city.Im generally ignored or avoided with the exception of a few old timers to AA who assure me not to let it detour me, that Im doing the right thing despite the fact that I seem abit angry.

Well, yeah; I am angry. The only comping mechanism I have for bordom, frustration and the fact that I havent gotten laid in a year & a half has been taken away....

You get the point and see where Im going with this.

Recovery is ok. Ive gone thru it before, but Im honest enough to admit that I LOOOOve how a good amount of heroin feels as it courses thru my veins.it feels good. THATS why you get addicted.

but shit isnt or hasnt gotten bad enough here to blow my brains out over...its just wierd and Im not accouctomed to small tow life.