Accidentally In Love

By: Audiophile84 Mood: in love Date: 02/09/2008 17:41:09 Music: The Stranger-OAR

After two years or romantic fuck-ups and mishaps, I think I may be on the verge of falling madly in love with somebody.

  His name is Patrick and he's the first man to seem me entirely.  I'm not just a rock chick, young chick, or scarily ambitious chick.  Looking in his eyes what is reflected is a completed picture of myself as I am, scars and all.

It's only been three weeks, with a month coming about next Saturday, and while for most people they'd be waiting for a little more time to pass anybody who knows me or reads this blog, that as of late, three weeks is an accomplish.

Never have I felt nervous, or had any of my typical freak-outs, all is good, and it's always all good if you follow.

He's a sweet and brilliant man with a love of music and words who superficially looks nothing like my type, but the first time we spoke I knew we were the same kind of weird. 

I'm in this for the long haul and right now there's no end in sight.  He's given himself to me pretty completely and openly.

He makes me laugh until I cry on a regular basis...and what's more, he doesn't even know how great he is, on regular basis he turns to me bewildered and asks, "Why are you still here?" and then laughs at it all.

Last night out date night was getting baked at his house and watching a flick.  We brought pizza in with us from the train, and after we ate he produced a box full of my favorite red velvet cupcakes from my favorite bakery in the hood.  Just because.

He may have also referenced children that I'll either bare or we'll adopt together, but in any event will be ours.

A decent chunk of me is worried I'll wake up and find out that like Tyler Durden he's only in my mind.  The other part of me is glad to understand those girls who feel the need to get in touch with their boyfriends multiple times a day, because I never have before, and to feel right being with somebody, as oppossed to say, just good.

I'll keep you posted.  With any luck, it'll be good news all the way.  If he asked me to marry him TONIGHT, I'd say yes and demand we walk down the isle ASAP.

Keep the faith and rock on!