Fuck fuck fuck

By: bitchtits Mood: other Date: 01/17/2013 10:07:04 Music: None

I know most people, if not everyone, has felt the way I have been feeling. I know I'm not the only one. For quite some time now, I have been struggling with the age old question, "what do I want to do with my life?" I'm talking career wise. I already did the college thing back in 2008-2009 and that was a nightmare; A ton of students, including myself, were super screwed over and stuck in a program we didn't want because the school was advertising ones they didn't even have BUT claimed to be opening soon (and they didn't until I was almost done with the program I knew I was gonna hate). I stuck it out, got a diploma in it, waste of time and waste of money. I learned my lesson on that one. Anyways, August of 2011, I spoke with a counselor at another college. I was disappointed finding out that ALL the things I was interested in were closed and not accepting anymore students due to being flooded. So, I still enrolled and took 2 semesters of general classes. I even attended a career workshop with a counselor on campus, took the in depth tests and did worksheets and such...wasn't too helpful because I'm not interested in half the shit it said I should be or look into. I still looked at some but nothing sparked, or they are things that require you to go to a university for.

The courses I am wanting to get into are radiography or physical therapist assistant. I was thinking about maybe surgical tech today, but I'm unsure. That is one of the programs that aren't closed yet. I just already have a bad taste in my mouth from the previous experience. I'm currently not in college this semester because I don't need to waste anymore time or money. I'm not trying to go to a university either and waste more time...I want to get in and get out into the career I want. Plus, I'm in quite a bit of debt from the other school.

As a kid, I was never so sure of what I wanted to be. I didn't want to think about that; I wanted to enjoy life and play around. Even as an adult, I'm still not 100% of what I want to be. But all I know is that I would like to stick with medical because I'm good at it (even when I was hating my internship) and its very interesting to me.

SO lame that that shit is flooded currently. But, who is to say that if I get into a program I want whenever it may open, that I'll actually like it, or find a job in it. A lot of my friends who went to a 4 year college can't find jobs with their degrees currently. I don't want to take yet ANOTHER chance and have it blow up in my face. I've already wasted enough time. I just wish one of the programs I wanted would open soon...the radiography one has been closed for a few years, and when I first looked into it back in 2009, it had a 5 year waiting list already. I have no idea what to do.

I'm open to advice. But I'm done bitching because I'm getting heated thinking about this shit.