My F**cked up Friday & other random sh*t!!! Part 3….
Nine Inch Nails
Hopefully the conclusion!!!!!
Not sure where I was headed next. I knew I wasn’t going to go home, and I
already made it up in my mind that I would sleep in the rental car. I just wasn’t ready to go back yet. I decided to rest my tired battered soul at
Adobe Liquor…maybe I’d run into one of my street friends. I really wanted to buy a little bottle of
alcohol but had no cash. I just sat and
rested, I was not mad anymore….now the sadness was setting in that I probably
lost one of my good friends for good. It
seemed pretty irreparable to me. What he
did, what I said. People coming and
going, it’s all a blur…lost in my own little world. Finally a tall hipster-ish kind of guy, maybe
in his 30’s asked if I was alright. I
told him I was having a bad night, got in a fight with my good, friend and that
I had nothing on me as “they” took everything from me. He said “I know this isn’t much…” as a $20.00
landed in my lap “but if it helps you out.
Just don’t buy alcohol with it….cigarettes are ok”. I told him “thanks, I don’t smoke…that’s so
nice of you…what’s your name?” I could
feel tears gently streaming down my cheeks…he said “Justin”…”thanks Justin,
that is so nice of you”. He replied “buy
yourself something to eat or something nice”.
His friend then came out and said “I know it’s not much, but maybe you
want this?” He offered me a Vitamin
water, which I gladly accepted as I was dehydrated now. I thanked him as well. Both of them again. My faith in humanity had been restored. I usually would never accept, and give when I
can. I guess it was my turn to finally
accept a kind gesture. As he was leaving
I heard his friend ask him “what did you give her?” Justin said “a $20.00”, his
friend asked him why he did that….his reply was “because she didn’t ask”.
Thanks Justin…whoever you are!!!
Now I was feeling better and contemplated for a second as to
buy some booze, as I now had $20.00.
That thought quickly dissolved as I realized that would be disrespectful
to Justin’s wishes. The store was
closing, so I realized it must be 2:00 am.
I stayed a little longer in front of the closed store. It was time to go
now. I really had to pee, and did
something I hadn’t done in a long time, piss in an alley behind a trash
bin. I next found the wall I previously
climbed over and looked at the back of my building, it was calm, quiet. I wasn’t going to disturb the peace by
climbing back over. I took the long way
home, walking around the block…slowly, making sure J1 or anyone else wasn’t
lurking. I nearly crawled to my rental,
seeing J1’s car nearly across from it…damn I wanted to let the air out of his
tires!! Of course I didn’t. I went into
my rental car and crashed, waking up several times, until finally crawled back
to my pad to find my son and his friend sleeping waiting for me. Mom was okay.
I slept a couple of hours more, took a bath to relieve my
sore muscles. Now to face any possible
wrath. I went to apologize to my manager
and we had a good talk. She was totally
on my side as she has known J1 for 13 years and she was proud for me standing
up to him. I told her that it I probably
pissed him off with that last message I sent him. When I was in the car I read it…I did not
text what I thought…it said “I want to talk to you about your erratic behavior
it’s disturbing me,,if you don’t want to talk I understand”…ugh, sounds kind of
bitchy to me…I really didn’t mean it that way….text and talking do not come out
the same way…I was half joking, but obviously jokes and sarcasm do not always
translate through text. I told her I was
leaving for a couple of days, and if she runs into him tell him I’ll stay away
from him and I’m not mad at him. She
told me not to worry about it, and said that we’ll probably be hanging out
again in a few days…I couldn’t fathom that…even though what he did to me was
wrong, so was I. I’m sure he hated me
now. I also found out it was another
neighbor whom called the cops, he actually told them I had a knife on me! What a dick.
He said that she should evict me! Doesn’t he realize he could have got
me killed if the cops came and they thought I had a weapon, one wrong move and
“bang”…dead by cop….good thing I don’t know who he is….I faced a few more
neighbors, they were kind and just asked how I was. “Fine, thanks for asking”. Luckily I didn’t see J1, part of me wanted to
the other part didn’t. I packed my
things and went off to Redlands for a few days.
To be continued……..almost finished!!!