My F**cked up Friday & other random sh*t!!! Part 3….

By: zombeewoman Mood: other Date: 07/14/2012 22:06:46 Music: Nine Inch Nails

Hopefully the conclusion!!!!!

Not sure where I was headed next.  I knew I wasn’t going to go home, and I already made it up in my mind that I would sleep in the rental car.  I just wasn’t ready to go back yet.  I decided to rest my tired battered soul at Adobe Liquor…maybe I’d run into one of my street friends.  I really wanted to buy a little bottle of alcohol but had no cash.  I just sat and rested, I was not mad anymore….now the sadness was setting in that I probably lost one of my good friends for good.  It seemed pretty irreparable to me.  What he did, what I said.  People coming and going, it’s all a blur…lost in my own little world.  Finally a tall hipster-ish kind of guy, maybe in his 30’s asked if I was alright.  I told him I was having a bad night, got in a fight with my good, friend and that I had nothing on me as “they” took everything from me.  He said “I know this isn’t much…” as a $20.00 landed in my lap “but if it helps you out.  Just don’t buy alcohol with it….cigarettes are ok”.  I told him “thanks, I don’t smoke…that’s so nice of you…what’s your name?”  I could feel tears gently streaming down my cheeks…he said “Justin”…”thanks Justin, that is so nice of you”.  He replied “buy yourself something to eat or something nice”.  His friend then came out and said “I know it’s not much, but maybe you want this?”  He offered me a Vitamin water, which I gladly accepted as I was dehydrated now.  I thanked him as well.  Both of them again.  My faith in humanity had been restored.  I usually would never accept, and give when I can.  I guess it was my turn to finally accept a kind gesture.  As he was leaving I heard his friend ask him “what did you give her?” Justin said “a $20.00”, his friend asked him why he did that….his reply was “because she didn’t ask”. Thanks Justin…whoever you are!!!

Now I was feeling better and contemplated for a second as to buy some booze, as I now had $20.00.  That thought quickly dissolved as I realized that would be disrespectful to Justin’s wishes.  The store was closing, so I realized it must be 2:00 am.  I stayed a little longer in front of the closed store. It was time to go now.  I really had to pee, and did something I hadn’t done in a long time, piss in an alley behind a trash bin.  I next found the wall I previously climbed over and looked at the back of my building, it was calm, quiet.  I wasn’t going to disturb the peace by climbing back over.  I took the long way home, walking around the block…slowly, making sure J1 or anyone else wasn’t lurking.  I nearly crawled to my rental, seeing J1’s car nearly across from it…damn I wanted to let the air out of his tires!! Of course I didn’t.  I went into my rental car and crashed, waking up several times, until finally crawled back to my pad to find my son and his friend sleeping waiting for me.  Mom was okay.

I slept a couple of hours more, took a bath to relieve my sore muscles.  Now to face any possible wrath.  I went to apologize to my manager and we had a good talk.  She was totally on my side as she has known J1 for 13 years and she was proud for me standing up to him.  I told her that it I probably pissed him off with that last message I sent him.  When I was in the car I read it…I did not text what I thought…it said “I want to talk to you about your erratic behavior it’s disturbing me,,if you don’t want to talk I understand”…ugh, sounds kind of bitchy to me…I really didn’t mean it that way….text and talking do not come out the same way…I was half joking, but obviously jokes and sarcasm do not always translate through text.  I told her I was leaving for a couple of days, and if she runs into him tell him I’ll stay away from him and I’m not mad at him.  She told me not to worry about it, and said that we’ll probably be hanging out again in a few days…I couldn’t fathom that…even though what he did to me was wrong, so was I.  I’m sure he hated me now.  I also found out it was another neighbor whom called the cops, he actually told them I had a knife on me!  What a dick.  He said that she should evict me! Doesn’t he realize he could have got me killed if the cops came and they thought I had a weapon, one wrong move and “bang”…dead by cop….good thing I don’t know who he is….I faced a few more neighbors, they were kind and just asked how I was.  “Fine, thanks for asking”.  Luckily I didn’t see J1, part of me wanted to the other part didn’t.  I packed my things and went off to Redlands for a few days.

To be continued……..almost finished!!!